“…I can’t wait until the morning, wouldn’t want to change a thing
people moving all the time inside a perfectly straight line
don’t you wanna curve away
when it’s such a perfect day…”
Chris Martin
Here is where I live:
Wednesday started Tuesday night with some kind words from some people who matter. I often end letters by saying that I know God’s kindness best through the people He’s put in my life. That kindness showed up Tuesday night.
I woke up Wednesday morning full of anticipation and encouragement… and nervousness. Children’s Medical Center in Dallas had arranged for a Wednesday in which 15 photographers would come and photograph a day in the life at the hospital, a full 24-hours, and I got to be one of the photographers there. It was an honor, a challenge, and a lot to take in.
Between the doctors and the staff and the kids and story after story after story, I found myself overwhelmed with the compassion that emerges when a child is sick or injured. Some of the things I photographed were heart-wrenching. Many of the things I photographed were beautiful. The doctors and staff and the kids and their stories told an over-arching story of humanity’s need for healing and wholeness. The hospital’s approach recognizes that there is more to that need than the right medication or treatment.
I do not exactly have words for what I saw. I have some stories to tell. The hospital has some images that tell those stories better than my words. It is humbling that I got to create them.
My day at the hospital ended with a trauma that was difficult to witness. It felt invasive to be photographing a severely injured little boy as he was treated in the ER and then the ICU. When I left he wasn’t doing very well, and my heart felt heavy, grieved. My day at the hospital, which had a lot of joy and laughter amid some of the harsher realities of life (cancer, chronic illness, fragile children…), ended on a minor chord. I was tired. I wondered where Jesus was in this little boy’s story. I had seen him all through the hospital all day long but struggled to trust him in the midst of this story. And yet he stayed there with that little boy. I know he did.
So much about what happened on Wednesday, in the stories I witnessed and photographed at the hospital and in the fact that I got to be one of the photographers there at all, was drenched in something larger than me. I am not always able to see a clear line of God’s handiwork in the daily. I believe it is always there. Wednesday, though, he helped my perspective to be bigger than me. I saw those created in his image looking a lot like him. I love that.
Something is clear about Wednesday, which started on Tuesday night. The whole experience provoked me to dream. Texas is my context for now, as illustrated by the photos in this post. But maybe it’s not a permanent context. I am again wondering what happens next.