“It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live, remember that.”
-Dumbledore to Harry
(p157 Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone, J.K. Rowling)
Now my feet won’t touch the ground; now my head won’t stop.
-Coldplay
Sometimes weariness means squinting if you want to see the road in front of you. Usually it means sleeping more would be a good idea. The question, then, is how to turn off my head.
These days I question my place in life a lot. This seems to be a routine stop on the road for me. When travel hides beyond the horizon, restlessness reveals its maddening head. God leaves me to it, as forcing our hands is not an act an all loving being resorts to. All these old forgotten dreams come up, and I wonder if I missed it. Should I have pursued a different road or tried harder or given more? Would I have ended up somewhere else? Would I have wanted to?
Here’s the thing: reality at it’s best is quite alive. Quite alive moments do not leave a lot of time for dwelling on the above questions (that’s not to say there’s not a place for self-examination). They are focused on people and places and God and ideas and stories and books and words and truth and kisses and hugs and love, love, love. In Exodus, Moses asks God to let him see his glory, and God tells Moses he can’t see God’s face or he’ll die. God lets him see his goodness, though. And here’s what I love about this and keep thinking about: his goodness is his glory.
That means when we’re with people and it’s good, God’s glory is there.
When we see places that are beautiful and good, God’s glory is there.
When awareness of God is real and full and therefore good, God’s glory is there.
When an idea comes or
a story gets lived or written or told and
books get written and read that are epic and happy and challenging (read: Harry Potter) or
words are spoken that breathe life or
truth gets noticed or
hugs and kisses are given and received freely and wanted and
love, well, love enfolds…
…when those things happen, it is goodness.
God’s glory is there.
It’s not that my dreams of yesterday got shelved. It’s just that life is happening, and though it is not always good, so, so, so much is goodness. So God’s glory is here. That’s worthy of celebration.
Here’s a little rediscovered goodness:
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I had a comment to make on this, and then I started to look at the other postings and forgot. But I liked this. Just wanted you to know… 🙂
Erin, the struggles you mention here have been the struggles of my life for the past year and a half…. soon I hope to be at the place where I see more of the goodness and glory than I do of the dreams on the shelf. Thanks for sharing your heart.